I can't pick a vague/relevant 10 Years lyric

I really hate when I'm online for like, six hours and then after I go to bed I decide I need to blog about something. That's probably because I am the goddamn king of distracting myself. And then everything comes back.

I feel that I need to blog right now, but I also feel that I would be the world's biggest douche for bitching about my terrible life during this time. So, for the time being, since I have to work in... five hours anyway, I'm going to write a cliff notes version. Rather, I'm going to make bullet points and come back. It's not going to help, really, and when I come back to write I'm either going to A. forget most if not all of my point and B. will most certainly loose the poetic and flowery way in which I describe most things. However, if I don't say anything, my thoughts will merely become ghosts of their former selves, haunting my mind for a few seconds at a time before drifting away and deteriorating. And there is nothing worse than rotting, dying thoughts in your head. It smells like failure and depression. And heroin.

Things that are utterly retarded that are bothering me somehow:
-Money
-Regrets (kind of. This makes it sound like i'm regretting stuff. Which I guess I am? It's more about the principle of the idea)
-College
-Work
-My insecurities (see also: my life)
-My desperate need for attention (see above)
-The fact that all the lyrics I ever post anywhere are thinly-veiled portals into my true thoughts and feelings, and therefore I don't post any lyrics ever because I don't want to make people feel awkward/seek attention (see above two entries)
-self medication
-multiple friends of mine
-the new roomie
-the fact that i just got too lazy to capitalize anything
-sinuses
-a new story plot, maybe.

Yeah. Anyway. I'll come back to all that soon. Maybe tomorrow. But I'm tired and my cat is awkwardly staring at me and I want him to stop. Maybe the thoughts will let me sleep now, too. Unless orange mcwhinybutt purrs in my ear all night. That'd be fun. Anyway...

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