Sunday, October 21, 2012

You're drunk in your desire.

I'm bored as fuck and drunk.

Headline: I'm drunk again.

This time, though, I'm watching My Little Pony on Netflix. KK didn't say a word. Good. I would have thrown fists. I only take shit from people I really like. Not that I don't like her. She just hasn't earned the right to make fun of my shit.

My hands hurt like fuck.

I don't want to go to work on Monday.

Yes, I realize that today is still Saturday for me.

I was going to get a bunch of writing done today, but I honestly didn't feel like it. Well, that, and Twitter conversations happened. I can't focus on two kinds of conversations at once.

Goddamn needy internet.

The amount of which I'm attaching to women I have no chance with is somewhat worrying. Due to conversations within the last week, and especially today, I'm beginning to worry for my sanity.
Again.

The house keeps breaking. First the window, then the screen door. lolwut.

Headline: I'm still too poor to afford food. Awesome.

Beth gave me two, count 'em, two bottles of alcohol yesterday. Yay feeding my alcoholism and dependency on legal drugs!

I feel like it's starting to get out of control. But I haven't let it unravel me yet, blog. Please... please don't let me get out of control. I'm asking you, me, the higher power, fuck... I'm asking anything that can keep me on the right track. Please don't let me turn into my father. Please.

I'm begging.

Things to not look good for Homestar Runner.

Wait a second. Yes they do! I'm the BEST IN THE WORLD! I can do ANYTHING!

The time it takes for me to go from self-depreciating to overly cocky is amazing. I think I'm bipolar.

BEST IN THE WORLD.
go die in a fire.

BEST IN THE WORLD.
seriously you suck.

BEST.
no.

IN.
shut up.

THE.
seriously?

WORLD!
die.

I'm not sure what to believe anymore. But I'd rather be cocky and egotistical than self hating and insufferable.

Don't you agree?

I agree.

And you and me, blog? We're important. I can count on one hand, with fingers remaining, the amount of people I fully and undeniably trust.

And those are the important people.

And those are the people who allow me to live " Fidelitas usque ad Finem."

And that's why it's going to be my first tattoo.

Because I'm the best in the world.

Show me some respect.

[boom]

Monday, October 8, 2012

She's a killer, she's my, cyanide sweet-tooth suicide

There is absolutely NO REASON why I chose that song for Brittyn's theme song in ACW (A storyline based e-fed that I'm in. I literally sign up and don't have to do anything!)

Anyway.

I'm not sure I have a lot to say. Also, I'm using my desktop keyboard right now and it's really loud and the keys are far apart and I kind of hate it. It's not as smooth as my other one. That's alright though. I have another one on the way. FO FREE.

(I love Amazon points.)

Like, seriously, my laptop is a desktop. The only thing that's missing is the tower. That reminds me, I really gotta factory reset that fucker one of these days. Thank god for external hard drives.

Headline: I'm drunk again.

Right then, down to business. The other day I promised a blag about someone and their lack of awesomeness in accordance to keeping people hooked.

The idea of being awesome is nothing more than a figment. It cannot be measured quantitatively. There is no scale in existence that can transfer pounds or parts per million in accordance with "awesomeness". To say that one's existence can be described as "awesome" is pandering to their self in the very essence of the word.

If one's condition, one's existence cannot be assumed as "awesome", then one's control also cannot be confirmed as "awesome".

And, really, what is control? Is control a measurement of the movements of others? How does one draw the line between voluntary and involuntary actions? This is a debatable topic as there are arguments for and against the idea of entirely involuntary actions.

Let's say we assume that all actions are voluntary, for the sake of argument. If all actions are voluntary, how could it be that we have involuntary actions for a fictitious measure of human existence? The actions fall on the shoulders of the person performing them, not from an outside measure. Now, to continue the argument, say that the person performing the actions is selfless enough to perform such actions for the benefit of someone else. Would it be right to assume that it is due to "awesomeness"?

No, no it would not.

It is due to the selflessness of the action-doer.

Awesomeness does not exist.

(I ran out of steam.)

Anyway, yeah, that was interesting. You're lucky I went philosophical and not Torch/Shaun Andrews. You get an RP from one of those two and you're buried. Remember that before you try to fight back. Not that you can. My argument is CLEARLY flawless.

Yeah, you ain't got shit.

[boom]

(I suppose you're decently cool. Maybe mildly awesome. MAYBE.)