I miss you so much. It hurts to badly when I have to go to bed alone. All I want is to see your face when I wake up. To hear your voice when I go to sleep, to feel your warmth as I drift. It kills me. The nights are so hard for me. I love spending time with you, I love making you laugh. I can't seem to tear myself from you because I'm afraid you'll forget me. You'll up and leave me. I know it's not true. I know I'm only hurting things. But it hurts so much, I just have to be near you somehow. Even if it's not perfect anymore. Even if I know for 100% sure what I am to you, if I know "my place". I just need to be near you.
I wish I could do right by you. I wish I could have made it so I didn't mess it up. I'm sorry. I'd do anything. Anything at all. I swear it.
I dread the day when a boy (or maybe girl?) comes into your life. It'll kill me. Not that I want you to put it off on my account. I've wanted you to be happy since day one. It'll just hurt. But I think you can understand that. After all, you are one of the most understanding, caring, amazing...ah...best people I know. (Had to cut myself off there).
But I know this is all in vain. There's nothing you can do, nothing I can do. So I just sit here cold and broken and wonder to myself...do you miss me at all?
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